Love the message in these lyrics

“Demons”

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood’s run stale

I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There’s nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

Curtain’s call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you’ve made

Don’t wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don’t wanna hide the truth

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

They say it’s what you make
I say it’s up to fate
It’s woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can’t escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

 

Ramblings

In my secret place, I feel safe here.

Black Smears bleed into blue and yellow,

I watch them flutter and then fade into a field of green release.

I don’t feel like such a monster in this place.

Here I am just a faint heartbeat,

a pile of brokenness, thoughts and insecurities.

Unfinished 7/20/2013

Thankful

This year has truly been one of the hardest years of my adult life. My marriage was shattered, my family was a reck and I was betrayed by two people that I loved and cared for very much. I was completely lost for the first time in my life, so I did the only that I could. I prayed and prayed and prayed for God to help me. I prayed for direction and wisdom. I prayed for the people that had hurt me so much. I prayed for my heart to be at peace with my future, whatever that might be.

God heard me. Not only did he answer my prayers but he restored my marriage and my family. Through all of the pain, the heartache and the grief, I learned many things about myself. I am much stronger then I give myself credit for, I am so much more loved by my friends and family then I thought I was. I know now to be more cautious of who I let into my life and who I give my friendship to. I love myself and know that I have worth. I know what I want and I will fight for it.

My husband and I have been through many trials in our relationship but we always seam to come through it and learn from it. We grow stronger and closer together through each trial, especially this most recent one. We have something extremely special between us, that I think other people tend to be jealous of. I have so much to be thankful for not just on thanks giving but every day.

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