Three things have become very apparent to me over the last year or so.
1.That old cliché saying “she wears her heart on her sleeve” yep, that’s me.
I was talking with my Momma the other day about how hard it is for me to give up on people that I have loved or fallen in love with throughout my life. Even when they have treated me nasty, said or written horrible things to me or about me, I always find a reason to forgive and keep on loving anyway. My Momma says that I’ve been that way since I was a little girl.
2. It is extremely important to me that I am needed by others.
I am in no way saying that this trait is good or bad. These are simply things that I have realized about myself and it is probably something that I need to work on.
My way of showing love is taking care of others. I’ve taken in several people over the years to help them get on their feet and sadly a lot of the time I’d up getting burned but still continued to give sometimes to the point of it being an issue in my marriage. I tend to make someone else’s pain my own. I take it on as if it happened to me and I feel compelled to be a source of calm and shelter. Love makes me blind and I end up with people who would gladly guide me toward a cliff.
3. I trust in people with the expectation that they see life the way that I do.
This past year has been a painful reminder that I need to be careful of who I let into my soul. We all have inner demons, it is important not to let them mingle with others.