My Auntie had a heart attack today.
Doctors say that she has congestive heart failure. I found out at work while talking with a friend on my lunch break. Waited until I got in my car at the end of the day, sat there a minute and broke down.

I’m going to be thirty next June, my mom lost her mother at 28. I’ve watch people lose their mothers, their spouses, friends. I’m not ready for this, I never want to be.

Fuck I can’t sleep.