Category: Addys Life

My own worst enemy

I hate it when I lay in bed at night and my mind starts thinking about a million different things. I laid there for about two hours watching the night sky through the window next to my bed. My mind did what it always dose and went to a place that I didn’t want to be, so I decided to get up and do … Read More My own worst enemy

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Weekend happenings

My heart was so anxious this weekend. I saw family that I hadn’t seen in years. It was bittersweet due to the fact that we all got together because of cancer. I didn’t want My grandparents to see me cry, especially my grandpa Dan. Seeing him with tubes and an oxygen tank was surreal, the big strong man that I knew as a child … Read More Weekend happenings

What I will never get back

California’s evil is overflowing to Arizona. Got a letter from my Father telling me that they are moving inmates to Florence prison, him included. In a few days I’ll only be a few miles away from a man that I helped put away for twenty years. It’s strange to me now that I ever called him dad. I’ve been going back and fourth in … Read More What I will never get back

I still sleep with a dream catcher above my bed.

You would have been 73 years old today. I often wonder how my life would have been influenced had you been here to guid me as I grew up. What advice would you have given me? Would you be proud of who I am today? I wish you could have watched me graduate high school. I would love to have danced with you at … Read More I still sleep with a dream catcher above my bed.

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She made me cry

Thankful

This year has truly been one of the hardest years of my adult life. My marriage was shattered, my family was a reck and I was betrayed by two people that I loved and cared for very much. I was completely lost for the first time in my life, so I did the only that I could. I prayed and prayed and prayed for … Read More Thankful

Dear Daddy

Dear Daddy, Why have you dirtied my flesh? Because of you I am broken, A fucking mess of a little girl, There are only shards left now. The scars that you left with your hands and your mouth run deep, so deep that they seep into my dreams. A faceless sin, night after night stealing my innocent’s¬†one touch one manipulation at a time. The … Read More Dear Daddy