Tag: life

My sweet kitty

My baby Bowie, you came to me at a time in my life when I really needed unconditional love, I was hurting. I remember seeing your picture on Facebook for the first time, I instantly knew I wanted to be your mom. I could tell by your cheeky grin that you would fit right in with our hodgepodge family of rescues. The first night … Read More My sweet kitty

Good Days & Hard Days

Recently I’ve had more Good days than Hard days, more energy and less bad feelings. This morning was the first time in a few weeks that I woke up in a panicked state. I had a nightmare about my son that I won’t go into detail about (it was horrific). I did some deep breathing exercises and after about 25 minutes or so I … Read More Good Days & Hard Days

GD Christmas party

My Christmas party outfit is now complete. I decided on boots with my dress because I didn’t want to be sinking in the grass with heals. I do love the high heals that I have on in the pictures though, I should have bought them. I’m not super happy with my arms yet, but a little more toning and possibly surgery next year. Either … Read More GD Christmas party

I’m in my car way to much 😑

Provisional blog post

Sometimes, the thing that might seem absurd to an outside perceiver of a situation is the right thing for the person going through the issue. I was talking about this with my therapist last week, in regards to an internal struggle I’m having. I had this close friend who hurt me deeply and our friendship stopped abruptly. It was revealed to me that she … Read More Provisional blog post

Unexpected calls

I was on my way to get my nails and toes done today but decided I didn’t feel like driving all the way to Gilbert. I went to finish my Christmas shopping for my nieces, nephews and little cousins instead. I pulled into the shopping center and I felt my phone vibrating, it was a call from an unknown number. I hesitated but answered … Read More Unexpected calls

Insomnia

I should be sleeping but my brain has other plans. I have VNG testing tomorrow to see if the dizzy spells I’ve been having are caused by an inner ear issue. If the test comes back negative, i’ll have to have a CAT scan of my brain. The last time I had one done I felt like I peed myself because of the contrast … Read More Insomnia

“I am safe. You are safe. The world of us is safe.”

“I am safe. You are safe. The world of us is safe.”

Ewww

I can’t help but cringe every time I hear the word “affair.” It seems like I hear that word at least once a day, now that I’ve experienced the damage of one in my own marriage. A close friend of mine called me tonight, distraught because she just found out that her husband of eight years has been having an affair for the last … Read More Ewww

I see me

I use to fear being alone, especially at night. In the last week I’ve come to find that I’m very content coming home to an empty house (aside from my animals). My heart still hurts but I’m learning so much about who I am and who I want to become. I finally see the women all of my friends and family see. I have … Read More I see me

Today is a hard day. It took everything I had to get out of bed this morning. All I want to do is stay under the covers and cry. I told myself that being a pile of tears wasn’t an option. I will keep moving forward and hopefully someday this pain will go away. One foot In front of the other. Just keep breathing. … Read More

My loves