Urn NecklaceĀ 

Tonight when I got home from work, I received a big yellow envelope from my Grandma in Alaska. In it contained some gift cards and two smaller white envelopes with “Papa” and “Craig” written on them, father and son. I knew the contents would be their ashes. I couldn’t bring myself to open them for a few hours because somehow, even though it’s almost been a year, it would make their deaths much more real to me. I call and talk to my grandma at least twice a week and I still expect to hear my papa answer the phone. He would always say;

“Well, how Miss Mandy be today? You wanna talk to the old biscuit?”

I miss them both terribly. I will never get use to them being gone. 

Love

Sitting in the quiet of the morning, I’m reflecting on what the word “Love” means to me. I hear the word love being thrown around a lot lately but I don’t see it being used properly. I believe most humans don’t understand love in it’s truest form. For the longest time I didn’t understand it either and I’m not going to pretend that I’ve mastered it. I’m learning. Here is what I’ve learned over the years about Love. Read More

Tell Mama

This reminds me of my Momma, she has a beautiful voice. she would sing me to sleep every night, It’s a gift that I have carried on for my son and a memory that I will always cherish.

I still sleep with a dream catcher above my bed.

You would have been 73 years old today.

I often wonder how my life would have been influenced had you been here to guid me as I grew up. What advice would you have given me? Would you be proud of who I am today?

I wish you could have watched me graduate high school. I would love to have danced with you at my wedding and I wish I could have watched the look on your face the first time you met my son Jayden.

It was so hard to see Momma in so much pain after you passed away. She was never the same. I wonder if her life would have turned out differently if you were still here. You were the glue that held our family together and when you died everything dissolved.

I know that I will be with you again one day, but until then I will carry the memory of you within me.

Happy Birthday Grandma Betty

I still sleep with a dream catcher above my bed.

Xo Mandy